Sunday, April 10, 2016

I was not an accident. I was planned.

That's right. I think so many times people assume that an adopted person was somehow an “accident”. When you hear that there was an unwed mother and father that led to a child being given up for adoption, it is just assumed that mistakes were made and the child is also often considered a mistake.

I am here to tell you, I am not a mistake.

If you read Psalm 139:13-16 it very clearly says...

For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.

Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

On that day, all those years ago, God made me. He knitted me together. He fashioned me just the way He wanted me to be. He created me and it was all a part of His plan.

His plan for me to be His child.
His plan for me to be a teacher.
His plan for me to be a wife.
His plan for me to be a mom.
His plan for me to be a part of so much more.

But most of all, as someone told me not too long ago,
He created me to be a gift to my parents.

He didn't just create me and leave me there. It has been so very obvious to me that He had guided and directed my steps along the way.

As I unfold this story in the days to come, I am excited to show you how God planned not only my birth, but also so many other events and circumstances over the course of my life, so stay tuned.....



Friday, February 5, 2016

It's coming.....so stay tuned!!

After taking a break for a year and a half, I have decided to start blogging again. When I came to blogspot this morning to start working on a new post, I found that my old blog was gone. Completely erased. Google said the account didn't even exist anymore.  At first I was a bit frustrated, but then I have decided that maybe it is a good thing. Time to leave the past in the past and move forward.  

When I originally started this blog two years ago, I was in a very different place in life. I was hurt, disillusioned, and just flat out struggling with circumstances in life.  In the midst of all life's confusion, God just showed up and reminded me that He is in control of everything.  He did something so unexplainable, that the only explanation for all of it is Him.  And along the forty plus years of this journey, there is unquestionable evidence of His hand in all of it.

What is that thing, you ask? He allowed me to be reunited with my birth family. I was adopted, you see, in 1973 through a closed adoption. There was no way I would ever be able to find out who my birth mother was....that is unless God intervened. And He did...

Many of you saw the post in August of 2014 when I was reunited with my half siblings. I have had lots of questions from people asking how it happened. Some adoptees have contacted me asking how it came about in hopes of finding out some information that would help them along their own journey of discovery.  So I have decided to share with you my journey: the ups and downs, the emotions, the questions, the good and the bad. 

While there are many characters that will surface in this story, I cannot represent any of them. I can only represent myself. My thoughts, my feelings, my situation....

And it is coming, so stay tuned!!